Mainit ang Ulo

I'm tired. Leche yan. I still have to study and I'm tired already. I still have 6 essays to read. F*ck.

So mainit ang ulo ko all day. Just give me one thing or tell me one thing annoying and it will set me off. Even the tiniest thing irritates me now. I was bitching all day. Actually, until now.

This morning, I went to the dentist and had my tooth filled in. Then we went to the park coz it was my mom's and brother's birthday. I stayed inside the van for the most part to study but I actually just slept coz I was tired na nga. I slept at 3am and then woke up early for the dentist appointment so I was SLEEPY.

I want coffee now. I should've gone to Starbucks. Hayyyy...

Now I realized, I want a vacation, a break. Just relax and not think about anything else. Hay. But I can't afford a rest. I have to go, go, go and make the most of my time so I can graduate and then study again. It's so sad to think na next year pa ko makakatikim ng bakasyon. :(

F*ck it. 'Kay I'm gonna read again.

I'm not panicking. No, I'm not.

Shet. I can't answer question #2 of this effin' assignment. I don't where to find the answer! Leche.

Dangerous People Shouldn't Be Together

I feel like BLAH.

I'm guessing this is because of stupid hormones. I feel tired. I'm sensitive. Blaaaahhh!!! I'm supposed to study but I can't make my hand reach for my book. I just don't feel like studying. I should though 'cause I have an assignment due on Monday. Fuck.

Okay, this might be due to hormones and might retract this later on but I have been thinking of staying out of trouble. It just hit me one day. I think I already have an idea of who would cause my precious "downfall". It's not that I like him now BUT he has the capacity to bring it, to push me off the cliff of sanity and rationality to the hells of falling crazily in love. Ohgahd. I can't believe I even typed that. SO I MUST AVOID HIM. He will be dangerous to me...

...fuck. Fine. I can't avoid him, you know. But I should take it easy. Sabi nga ni Alvir, CONTROL! Hahahahaha!

Productivity at 70%

Sooo...I GOT THE JOB! Nyahahahaha!

I got the email yesterday. Was so freaking happy! I was smiling throughout my entire trip to work. This afternoon I went to Ms. Lall's office to discuss the details and have my courses approved for the 09-10 schoolyear. I don't start 'til October which is fine. I can use the time to search for an advisor. I'm pretty late now. Ah shit. I should've signed up early this year. But WHATEVER.

I did a lot today actually.

• I studied!
• I had my courses approved
• I met up with Ms. Lall
• I had a program check (YEY! I actually need just 2 more electives. Not 3.)
• I declared my intent to graduate (HELL YEAH!)
• Played FRISBEE! (Been playing everyday!)

And it's still early so I can still work on something. These past few days are pretty productive for me. It feels great! I don't how to explain it but now I can say I have more direction and control. I'm not wasting a lot of time and I actually accomplish things. Feels like my old self. My old, organized self.

I can't wait to buy a new planner! I used to be a Planner Girl but last school year, I didn't use one. I don't remember why. Maybe I grew tired of it or I was just too "busy". HAHA. This year I'm definitely back to being a Planner Girl. I so need organization.

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I'm anxious the whole day. Well at least, that's how I label it. It's just that my heartbeat is fast. I don't know if it's the caffeine (I drank coffee. VENTI. After not drinking for a while), hormones, or just exhaustion (Philosophy is tiring ya know!). Hayyy.

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Things feel different now. I'm not sure why. Different-Better not Different-Bad. I don't know.

Loathing

Sometimes people annoy you even if they're not doing anything to you. Perhaps they don't even know that you exist but you just LOVE to hate them. You know it's mean but you can't help it. There's just something with the person that makes you loathe him/her.

There's this guy who takes the same bus as me. I HATE HIM. I DON'T LIKE HIM. I can't even look at his face because I'm freakin' disgusted. No, there's nothing wrong with him ha. He's perfectly normal so you can't accuse me of being mean to differently abled people. There's just something in him that I don't like. His face maybe. Argh. I don't know. I just don't like him. He has Craterface*'s aura. (Speaking of Craterface, we now know his real name thanks to Patrick)But honestly, I hate him more than Craterface. Ewannn. I saw him at the bus stop earlier and thought of not taking the same bus 'cause I don't wanna be around him. Shit. I'm so mean. But I took the bus anyway 'cause travel time is shorter with it.

Grabe. Ang sama-sama ko. I'm burning in hell. HAHAHA.

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*He is one annoying hell of a being. His hobbies include flexing his muscles, checking himself out, and displaying his body in public. He doesn't have a home and can be found either in the university or in the mall. His favorite color is white and wears only white shirts.

Canada Day! :D

Went to the Osborne Fest with my sister and Lem. Lotsa people!!! Oh my gahd. But the trip is totally worth it. Super saya and super daming SALE. And most of all, NO TAX, man. No GSTs and PSTs!!! Hurray! We went there late in the afternoon. We should've went there early though para nasulit namin. NEXT YEAR, shit. I will be there at 10! Hahahaha! I also saw Jeff who shaved Michael Jackson's image on his hair. Uber cool.

So we went home around 5.30 then went to play frisbee at around 7. It's a tiring day but it's not over yet. Fireworks later! :D

Tomorrow will be the start of another month of schooling. Hayyyyy...

This over everything else

I'm still waiting for the email. Gahd. Kahit wag na kaming mag-usap kahit kelan ni GC. Or kahit wag ko nang makilala si Centrum. Kahit i-give up ko yung isa kong job. Kahit mapuyat pa ko lagi. Kahit di na ko maka-hangout ng madalas. Makuha ko lang to...!!!

YES. This over everything else.

I don't care. Whatever. I WANT THIS FREAKING JOB.

Napaisip tuloy ako. Shet. I'm really willing to sacrifice a lot for career advancement. Can you blame me?

Ummm...is this bad?

Ay nako. WHATEVER. I want it sooo bad. I really don't care.